Yeah, you left
and I was broken
but I was okay with it
even months after you
said goodbye.

I started talking to
someone else and
he made me smile
and laugh
when all I wanted to do
was curl up
in my bed
and listen to sad songs
and stare at pictures of you.

He was great
and I even liked him,
enough to make me
forget about you for a while.

But he ended up
hurting me too.

But you want to know
what’s really fucked up
about all of this?
When he hurt me,
it was you I was
thinking about.

I wasn’t thinking about
what he said
when he was high
or how he treated me
when he was having a bad day.

I was thinking of you
and how you’d
ignore my texts those
Thursday nights.

I was thinking of
how you didn’t think
that maybe you
not talking to me
for two weeks was
killing me in every way possible
and I’d go home
crying every time
you didn’t even
send me a glance.

I was thinking of your hands
and how I’ll never be able
to hold them ever again.

I was fucking thinking
of how you hurt me.

I just don’t
understand why…

When are you
going to leave?


I lose you everyday (via itzonlyyoubabe)

There’s always that one person who you fall in love with over and over again. They live in your heart and make themselves at home, even if you don’t want them there. Despite their imperfections, you can’t help but to think that their imperfections (indeed) make them perfect. All you can think about is every cliché love song and love quotes. Which has its down falls; you start to find yourself dwelling to sad songs and not sleeping till the break of dawn. Crying because your heart aches from not being able to be with them. How they are unattainable. How they don’t know how you feel. It hurts. But every little pinch of pain is worth it in the end. When the sun rises in the morning, remember that it’s the same sun that rises wherever they are too. ’Cause at 7:42 A.M., on the dot, when you’re awake thinking of them - they’re probably asleep, not knowing that you are.

So, I leave you with this, to determine if they’re worth it. Ask yourself: Are you in love with them? Or the thought of being in love?

Don’t lose yourself forcing to love someone you shouldn’t.

myself at 4 in the morning (via grr0dy)




Dear followers,

Idk if any of you have read the book It’s Kind Of A Funny Story {or seen the movie above} but yesterday was a very very very sad day because the author of this wonderful novel and many more, successfully committed suicide. He was an amazing author and person, and was the role model of many young people. He will be missed forever, but please I beg you all to go out and read this book in his memory. It will change your life. While Ned struggled with depression, he always kept a positive attitude with his fans and this book is a perfect example. I love you all, -Vivienne

I loved his books and him

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